I’m done with this sin that creeps up every day
I’m done with a lifestyle that just brings me shame
I’m done with these thoughts that so quickly betray
I’m done running from my Lord

I’m done doing things that I cannot eras’
I’m done playing games that defy His grace
I’m done having eyes that can’t look in His face
I’m done running from my Lord

I’m heading back to my Father’s house
He will make me whole and remove all doubt
I know He loves me and when I repent
He makes me into a new man again

I’m done giving time to the enemies whims
I’m done with defeat as I kneel close to Him
I’m done keeping quiet about my best friend
I’m going to run back to my Lord

This is the day the Lord has made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
For He has destroyed the enemies hold
Victory is now in my grip.

It’s been long enough, too long in fact. I have been hiding behind a façade thinking no one will know. No one will know the things I do when no one is around. No one knows the crazy mixed up thoughts I have when I am trying to focus on Him. The enemy works hard to get me to take time away from God, and he succeeds way too often. He captures my mind and takes me far away to a place I know I should not be. I cry out to God in the midst of my struggle and he hears me. But the enemy keeps atm it, saying I will return even if I give up now. He most often convinces me so I don’t fully repent.

Not this time. This time I’m done. I’m done playing games. I want all that God has for me and the only way that will happen is if I give my all to Him. If I throw away my sin and take on His armor, He will keep me safe. He will keep me from harm. He will deliver me from the depths, wipe off the miry clay and make me whole again. I need to be made a new creation again. Lord, shape me and mold me into the vessel you desire

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Jeremiah 18:6 King James Version (KJV)
6 O house of Israel, cannot I do with you as this potter? saith the LORD. Behold, as the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are ye in mine hand, O house of Israel.