I will be returning to these pages soon. While my break was very refreshing, it also took me places I should not have gone. It created idle time, and I learned some important things from this break, or perhaps I was just reminded of them.
The first is that pride is the greatest weapon our enemy has. It can pull down even the best and brightest star, which Lucifer once was (Ezekiel 28:14-18, Isaiah 14:12-14). He is very aware of what affect it will have on us, and on our relationship with God. So he slowly sneaks it into our mindset unawares, and soon we are finding ourselves making decisions different than what God has told us. We are finding ourselves and what we do important, more important than they are. We are becoming a star, hoping that everyone will see us, and see just how right and how honest and how just we are, when in fact we are just following our heart, which is deceitful (Jeremiah 17:9) We start to emulate others rather then being ourselves. I saw this in myself and rather than put it under the blood, I succumbed and stopped writing – the wrong thing to do. No weapon formed against me shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), including pride. Once recognized, it is already on defeat.
The second is when God tells me to do something, I should do that and not what I am telling myself, or what God did not tell me to do. The poems and songs are things that He was giving me daily, and as took my break, that flow was less audible to me. When you turn your mind off to God in one area, it’s easy to turn Him off in other areas too. I was hearing from God on a regular basis, and writing Psalms of praise and reflection on a regular basis. It was as simple as starting to write as He formed the words in my mind, and before I knew it, a song or a poem had arisen. But during this hiatus, as I was getting used to not writing, I turned my mind off to those sudden words that would come to me in the night (mostly). And very few new poems/songs have been written. You will start to see new posts again soon. I was also going to start back up on my piano, something I dd not do. I am doing that now.
The third thing was that I was going to devote more time to Bible study. But in dong so, I abandoned my study n Psalms, which was something God told me to do, and it was a wonderful learning experience for me, and will continue to be with 30 more Psalms to go. But I, in my own mind (and pride) thought I should be doing more bible study. Just doing a Psalm, or a part of a Psalm, and reflecting on it’s meaning in my life wasn’t enough , was it? I needed more, didn’t I? God never told me I needed more – that was my own quest for knowledge (which can be, and is in me, pride). He told me to reflect on Psalms. So I will go back to that. If you are not following my bible study page – Walking in Christ, you can find it HERE
So I am going to start posting again. It may not be daily, and sometimes it may. With the new work I have at home, I am a little busier than I was before, But I must do what God has asked me to do,so I will get back into it. I look forward to hearing from each of you, and thank you for staying in touch!